BackGold: Blood & Bond

Chapter 11 – Ripped Dress

GOLD

The city of Vienna sprawls beneath the Obsidian Court like a dream wrapped in shadow—human and oblivious, lights twinkling like stars, unaware of the war beneath their feet. I stand on the balcony of Cassian’s private suite, arms crossed, the night air cool against my skin. The sigil on my hip glows faintly, pulsing in time with the bond, a quiet hum beneath my ribs. It doesn’t burn anymore. Not like it used to. It *sings*. A low, steady melody, like a lullaby for the storm inside me.

But the storm isn’t gone.

It’s just changed.

It’s no longer just rage. Not just vengeance. It’s *want*. A slow, insistent ache that coils low in my belly, flaring every time I feel him—his breath in my lungs, his heartbeat in my chest, his *presence* like a hand at the back of my neck. I can’t escape it. Can’t silence it. Can’t pretend it’s not there.

And I don’t want to.

Not anymore.

I press a hand to the sigil, closing my eyes. Last night—what almost happened—still echoes in my bones. His fingers. His mouth. The way he made me come, screaming his name, my body arching, *begging*. The way he looked at me, like I was the only woman in the world. The way he said *love*, like it wasn’t a weapon, but a vow.

And then Lysara.

The door exploding. The dagger. The way he stepped in front of it, offering himself, *dying* for me.

I saved him.

Not because I had to.

Because I *wanted* to.

And that’s the truth I can no longer deny.

I’m not just bound by magic.

I’m bound by *choice*.

A knock at the door.

Not Cassian. His rhythm is different—slow, deliberate, like a war drum. This is lighter. Hesitant. Human?

“Come in,” I say.

The door opens. Kael steps inside, dressed in black tactical gear, sword at his hip, eyes wary. He doesn’t look at me directly. Doesn’t smile. But there’s no hostility in his stance—only caution, and something else. Respect? Concern?

“They’re summoning you,” he says. “The Council. A public banquet. In the Grand Hall.”

My stomach drops.

A banquet? After last night? After the ritual? After Lysara’s attack?

“Why?” I ask, voice steady.

“They’re calling it a celebration,” he says, grim. “To honor the bond. To show unity.”

“It’s a trap,” I say.

“Probably,” he agrees. “But you have to go. Refuse, and they’ll declare you a threat. Exile you. Execute you.”

I press my fingers to the sigil. “And if I go?”

“Then you walk in with your head high,” he says. “You don’t flinch. You don’t run. You show them you’re not afraid.”

I meet his gaze. “Why are you helping me?”

He hesitates. Then: “Because I’ve never seen him hesitate before. But with you… he flinches.”

And then he’s gone.

I turn back to the balcony, pressing my palms to the railing. The city blurs. My breath comes fast. The bond hums, restless, *hungry*. I can feel him—distant, but present—moving through the Court, preparing. For the banquet. For the lies. For *me*.

I don’t want to go.

But I don’t have a choice.

The Grand Hall is a cathedral of shadow and blood.

Walls of polished black stone, veins of crimson crystal pulsing with ancient magic. Chandeliers of frozen blood-diamonds cast a dim, red glow. The air is thick with scent—perfume, blood-wine, the musk of werewolves in heat, the sharp tang of witch sigils burning in the air. And every eye is on me.

I wear black. Not for mourning. For *defiance*. A floor-length gown, sleek and severe, the fabric like liquid shadow, hugging my curves, the slit up the side revealing a flash of thigh with every step. My hair is pulled back, silver streaks catching the light. My face is bare—no glamour, no mask. Just me. Gold Silvershade. Assassin. Hybrid. *Bound*.

And I walk beside him.

Cassian’s hand is on the small of my back—possessive, unyielding. His touch burns through the fabric, searing into my skin. I don’t pull away. I *can’t*. The bond flares with every step, his heartbeat syncing with mine, his breath echoing in my lungs. I feel his focus, his control, the way his body tenses when another vampire looks at me too long, when a werewolf’s gaze lingers on my throat.

He’s marking me. Not with fangs. With presence.

We reach the center of the room. The Council members are already seated—vampires in blood-red, werewolves in charcoal gray, witches in deep indigo, Fae in shimmering silver. Queen Nyx watches from her throne, eyes sharp, calculating. And then I see *her*.

Lysara.

She stands near the eastern pillar, dressed in crimson silk that clings to her like a second skin, her dark hair cascading in waves, lips painted the color of fresh blood. She’s beautiful—unnaturally so, as if sculpted by glamour. And her eyes—cold, knowing, *amused*—lock onto mine.

She smirks.

And in that moment, I *hate* her.

Not because she’s beautiful. Not because she’s close to Cassian. But because she *knows*. She knows about the bond. She knows about the sigil. She knows how much I’m fighting not to tremble under his touch.

And she’s enjoying it.

“Ignore her,” Cassian murmurs, his breath warm against my ear. “She’s nothing.”

“She’s your *lover*,” I hiss.

“She was a political liaison,” he corrects. “No bond. No bite. No claim.”

“She says you bit her.”

“She lies.” His hand tightens on my back. “And she’ll learn the cost of it.”

I don’t respond. I can’t. Because the bond is *alive*, pulsing with every heartbeat, every breath, every shift of his body against mine. I feel his arousal—low, simmering, *directed*—and it makes my core clench, my breath hitch. I press my thighs together, trying to smother it, but it only makes it worse.

And then—

Disaster.

We’re moving toward the high table when a vampire lord—ancient, arrogant, drunk on blood-wine—steps too close, his shoulder brushing mine. I stumble, caught off guard, and my heel catches on the hem of my dress.

The fabric *rips*.

Not a small tear. Not a seam splitting.

A full, jagged tear—up the side, from thigh to hip—exposing my leg, my black lace underwear, and—

Oh, *fuck*.

The bite mark.

On my shoulder.

Not Cassian’s. Not a claiming. But a *scar*—from when I was a girl, when a Purifier’s hound attacked me during the fire. A jagged, crescent-shaped wound, healed but permanent. A *brand* of survival.

But in the dim light, with the blood-diamonds casting shadows—

It looks like a *claiming bite*.

The room goes silent.

Every eye locks onto my shoulder. Every breath stops. The bond *screams*, a surge of energy that makes me gasp. I try to cover it, but Cassian’s hand is already there—his fingers brushing the mark, not hiding it, but *claiming* it.

“Careful,” he murmurs, voice low, meant only for me. “You’re showing too much.”

But he doesn’t move his hand.

He *leaves* it there—his thumb tracing the curve of the scar, slow, deliberate, *possessive*.

And the bond flares—hot, sudden—like it’s *awakening* the mark, like it’s turning a memory into a vow.

My breath hitches.

His eyes darken.

And then—

Whispers.

“Did he claim her?”

“Is she his Chosen?”

“She’s marked. She’s *his*.”

“He’s never looked at anyone like that.”

“She’s not the first woman he’s marked.”

Lysara.

Of course.

She’s already moving through the crowd, whispering to a Fae diplomat, a smirk playing on her lips. Spreading the lie. Feeding the fire.

And I can’t stop it.

Because the truth—

The terrible, undeniable truth—

Is that I don’t *want* to.

Part of me *likes* it.

The way his hand lingers. The way his thumb strokes the scar. The way the bond hums, *singing* at his touch. The way the room watches, knowing, *believing* that I belong to him.

And I do.

Not because of the bond.

Not because of magic.

Because I *let* myself.

Cassian leans down, his breath warm against my ear. “Let them talk,” he murmurs. “Let them believe.”

“You’re enjoying this,” I whisper.

“No,” he says. “I’m enjoying *you*.”

His hand slides from my shoulder to my waist, pulling me close. My back presses to his chest, his body a wall of heat and strength. His other hand takes mine, fingers interlacing, and the bond *flares*, a surge of energy that makes me gasp.

He begins to move.

Slow. Controlled. Deadly.

Every step, every turn, is precise, calculated. He leads me through the banquet like he leads his court—without hesitation, without mercy. And I follow, not because I want to, but because my body *knows* his rhythm, because the bond demands it, because every nerve in me is screaming for more.

His breath brushes my neck. Cold. Electric.

“You’re trembling,” he murmurs.

“I’m not afraid of you,” I snap.

“No,” he says. “You’re afraid of *this*.”

His fangs graze my neck—just a whisper, a tease, the sharp points barely touching skin.

I *moan*.

Soft. Unintended. But it rips from my throat like a confession.

His chest rumbles against my back—a growl, low and satisfied.

“See?” he whispers. “You don’t hate me. You *want* me. And the world is watching.”

I lift my head, defiant, and scan the room.

And yes—they’re watching.

Vampires with narrowed eyes. Werewolves with bared fangs. Witches whispering sigils. Fae with cold, knowing smiles.

And Lysara.

She’s still smirking. But there’s something else in her eyes now. Not amusement.

*Jealousy*.

Good.

Let her see it. Let her see how his hands feel on me. How his fangs tease my skin. How my body arches into him, even as I tell myself I don’t want this.

The banquet ends. The feast is cleared. And then—

Music.

Slow. Haunting. Played on strings that sound like dying stars.

Cassian turns to me.

“Dance with me,” he says.

It’s not a request.

It’s a command.

I want to refuse. I *should* refuse. But the bond pulls me, and my body—traitorous, *awake*—responds before my mind can stop it. I step into his arms.

His hand slides to my waist, pulling me close. My back presses to his chest, his body a wall of heat and strength. His other hand takes mine, fingers interlacing, and the bond *flares*, a surge of energy that makes me gasp.

He begins to move.

Slow. Controlled. Deadly.

Every step, every turn, is precise, calculated. He leads me through the dance like he leads his court—without hesitation, without mercy. And I follow, not because I want to, but because my body *knows* his rhythm, because the bond demands it, because every nerve in me is screaming for more.

His breath brushes my neck. Cold. Electric.

“You’re trembling,” he murmurs.

“I’m not afraid of you,” I snap.

“No,” he says. “You’re afraid of *this*.”

His fangs graze my neck—just a whisper, a tease, the sharp points barely touching skin.

I *moan*.

Soft. Unintended. But it rips from my throat like a confession.

His chest rumbles against my back—a growl, low and satisfied.

“See?” he whispers. “You don’t hate me. You *want* me. And the world is watching.”

I lift my head, defiant, and scan the room.

And yes—they’re watching.

Vampires with narrowed eyes. Werewolves with bared fangs. Witches whispering sigils. Fae with cold, knowing smiles.

And Lysara.

She’s still smirking. But there’s something else in her eyes now. Not amusement.

*Jealousy*.

Good.

Let her see it. Let her see how his hands feel on me. How his fangs tease my skin. How my body arches into him, even as I tell myself I don’t want this.

The song ends. The dance stops. But he doesn’t let go.

His arms stay around me, one hand still on my waist, the other holding mine. His breath is still at my neck. His arousal is a hard line against my lower back.

And the bond—

It’s *singing*.

“You’re mine,” he says, voice low, meant only for me. “No matter how much you fight it. No matter how many lies she tells. You. Are. *Mine*.”

I turn my head, just enough to meet his eyes.

“I’ll never be yours,” I whisper.

He smiles. Slow. Dangerous.

“You already are.”

And then he releases me.

I step back, unsteady, my skin burning, my core throbbing. The room spins. The scents, the sounds, the *heat*—it’s too much. I need air. I need space. I need to *think*.

I turn and walk—no, *flee*—toward the balcony.

The night air hits me like a slap—cold, crisp, scented with frost and distant pine. The city of Vienna sprawls below, human and oblivious, lights twinkling like stars. I press my hands to the railing, breathing hard, trying to steady myself.

“Running already?”

I don’t need to turn to know who it is.

Lysara.

She steps onto the balcony, heels clicking against the stone, the scent of jasmine and blood-wine wrapping around her like a shroud. She leans against the railing beside me, close enough that our arms almost touch.

“You’re good,” she says, voice smooth. “I’ll give you that. Making him *want* you like that? Impressive. Most women just beg.”

I don’t answer. I won’t give her the satisfaction.

“But you won’t last,” she continues. “He’s used to women who know their place. Women who don’t fight. Women who don’t *burn*.”

“And you?” I ask, finally turning to her. “Where do you fit in?”

She smiles. “I was the one who *pleased* him. The one who knew how to make him forget. The one who *let* him bite me.”

“He says you lie.”

Her smile falters. Just for a second. But I see it.

“He says a lot of things,” she murmurs. “But you and I both know the truth. He *wanted* me. He *took* me. And when he’s done with you—when your fire burns out, when your defiance becomes exhaustion—he’ll come back to me.”

I laugh. Short. Bitter.

“You really believe that?”

“I *know* it.”

“Then you’re a fool.”

Her eyes narrow. “You don’t know him.”

“And you do?” I challenge. “Then tell me—why hasn’t he claimed you? Why no bond? Why no bite? If you’re so special, why are you still *here*, watching him dance with me?”

She flinches.

And in that moment, I see it—the crack in her armor. The fear. The *need*.

She’s not confident.

She’s desperate.

“He’ll never want you the way he wants me,” I say, voice low, certain. “Because I’m not a conquest. I’m not a toy. I’m his *equal*. And you?”

I step closer, tilting my chin up.

“You’re just a ghost.”

Her hand flies out—fast, vicious—but I catch her wrist before she can strike. My claws extend, blackened silver, pressing against her skin.

“Try it,” I whisper. “And I’ll rip your throat out.”

She freezes. Eyes wide. Breathing fast.

And then—

“Impressive,” a voice says from the doorway.

We both turn.

Cassian stands there, arms crossed, expression unreadable. But I feel it—the heat in the bond, the *approval*.

“I told you,” he says, stepping forward. “She’s not prey.”

Lysara yanks her wrist free, glaring at me. “This isn’t over.”

“It already is,” I say.

She storms past Cassian, her heels echoing down the hall.

And then we’re alone.

The wind picks up, tugging at my hair, cooling my skin. But the heat between us—between *me and him*—doesn’t fade.

“You shouldn’t have done that,” he says.

“Why? Afraid I’ll embarrass you?”

“Afraid she’ll retaliate,” he says. “She’s dangerous. And she’s not alone.”

“Neither am I,” I say.

He studies me. Then reaches out—slow, deliberate—and tucks a loose strand of hair behind my ear.

His fingers brush my cheek.

Fire explodes in my veins.

I gasp, stepping back, but he follows, closing the distance.

“You feel it,” he murmurs. “Don’t you? The pull. The *need*.”

“I feel *you*,” I say, voice shaking. “In my head. In my blood. In my *body*. And I hate it.”

“Liar,” he says softly.

And then—

His hand slides to my hip.

Not over the fabric.

Under it.

His fingers brush the sigil.

Heat floods my core.

I *whimper*.

Images flash—his mouth on my neck, his hands on my breasts, his body driving into mine, the bond flaring, our magic merging, *fire and shadow*—

“Stop,” I choke, pressing my hands to his chest. “Stop.”

He doesn’t. Just watches me, eyes dark, voice rough. “You don’t want me to stop.”

“I do.”

“No. You want me to *claim* you.”

“I *hate* you.”

“No,” he says, leaning in, his lips brushing my ear. “You hate that you *want* me.”

I shove him back—hard—and turn, fleeing back into the banquet, my heart racing, my body aching, my soul torn.

But I know one thing.

He’s right.

I do want him.

And that terrifies me more than any blade, any bond, any lie.

Because if I let myself want him—

If I let myself *feel*—

Then I’m not just bound by magic.

I’m bound by *love*.

And that’s a prison no dagger can break.

But maybe—

Maybe it’s not a prison at all.

Maybe it’s a home.

And if that’s true—

Then I don’t want to escape.

I want to stay.

Forever.