BackMarked by Tide

Chapter 34 - Morning After

TIDE

TIDE

The dawn breaks like a whisper.

Not with light—there’s none of that here, not in the heart of the Midnight Court, where the sky is always ink and the stars are trapped in enchanted glass—but with silence. A soft, fragile quiet, the kind that follows a storm, when the wind has died and the earth holds its breath. I wake slowly, tangled in black silk, limbs heavy, skin still humming from last night’s fire. The air smells of smoke and storm and something deeper, something ancient—*us*.

And then I feel it.

Not the bite. Not the bond. Not the magic.

His breath.

Warm against my neck. Steady. Slow. *Alive*.

Kael.

He’s beside me, on his back, one arm beneath my head, the other draped across my waist. His chest rises and falls in a rhythm that matches mine, like our hearts have finally learned to beat in time. His fangs are retracted, his face relaxed—no mask of cold authority, no predator’s gaze. Just… peace. And something else. Something softer. Something *mine*.

I don’t move.

Don’t breathe.

Just watch.

The way his lashes cast shadows on his cheekbones. The way his fingers twitch in his sleep, like he’s still holding me even in dreams. The way his scent—salt and storm and something dark, something eternal—wraps around me like a second skin.

And then—

He stirs.

One hand lifts, brushes a strand of hair from my face. His eyes open—gold, dimmed with sleep, but still sharp, still *seeing* me.

“You’re awake,” he murmurs, voice rough.

“So are you.”

He doesn’t smile. Doesn’t pull away. Just watches me, chest rising and falling slow.

“You’re thinking,” he says.

“You said you’d stop noticing.”

“I lied.”

I exhale, long and slow. “I don’t know what I’m feeling.”

“Yes, you do.”

“I came here to destroy you.”

“And yet,” he murmurs, “you’re still here.”

The words hit like a blade.

But this time, I don’t flinch.

Because he’s right.

And I’m not running anymore.

I shift, just enough to press closer, my head resting on his chest. His heartbeat is steady. Strong. *Alive*. And the bond—no longer a scream, no longer a burn—hums beneath my skin, low and sweet, like a lullaby.

“Last night,” I say, voice quiet. “Did I…?”

“You chose it,” he says. “Not the bond. Not the magic. Not the fever. *You*.”

“And you?”

“I’ve been choosing you since the moment you touched the Contract.”

My breath hitches.

“You could have walked away,” I say. “You could have let me go.”

“And spend the rest of my immortal life wondering what could have been?” He turns his head, just enough to look at me. “No. I’d rather burn with you than live without you.”

My chest tightens.

Because I came here to destroy him.

To sever the chain.

To avenge my mother.

But now?

Now I’m not sure I want to.

“You’re not like him,” I whisper.

“Who?”

“The vampire king who took her.”

He doesn’t answer.

Just watches me, eyes dark, fangs bared.

“You’re not a monster,” I say. “You’re not a predator. You’re… *more*.”

“And you?” he asks. “Are you still just a weapon?”

“I don’t know.”

“Then stop fighting,” he murmurs. “Stop hating. Stop pretending. Let me in. Let *us* in.”

My breath hitches.

And then—

I kiss him.

Soft. Slow. *Choosing*.

My lips brush his—just a whisper of contact. But the bond *erupts*, a jolt of heat tearing through me, my fangs descending, my hands flying to his waist, pulling him closer. He doesn’t resist. Just opens for me, his tongue tangling with mine, his body pressing into mine, his hands sliding up my back, into my hair.

I groan.

Deep. Rough. *Mine*.

And the world?

It tilts.

Spins.

Burns.

But this time—I don’t pull away.

I *lean* in.

Because the truth is—

I don’t know if I came here to destroy him.

But I know I’m not leaving.

Not now.

Not ever.

Later, in the quiet, we rise.

Not with urgency. Not with tension. But with something softer. Something new. He helps me up, his hands warm on my waist, his eyes never leaving mine. The bed is a ruin of tangled sheets, the air thick with the scent of us—salt and storm and fire. The runes on the walls pulse faintly, reacting to the magic, to the bond, to the *truth*.

He reaches for his coat, but I stop him.

“Wait.”

He turns. “What?”

“Let me.”

I step closer, my fingers brushing the fabric. Slow. Deliberate. I slide the coat from his shoulders, let it fall to the floor. His chest is bare—scarred, powerful, *mine*. I press my palm to it, over his heart. It beats strong. Steady. *Alive*.

“You’re not going to disappear,” I say.

“No.” He lifts his hand, fingers brushing my cheek. “I’m not going anywhere.”

“And if I asked you to?”

“You wouldn’t.”

“And if I did?”

“I’d say no.” He leans in, close enough that I can feel his breath on my lips. “Because I’m not letting you go. Not now. Not ever.”

My breath hitches.

And then—

I kiss him.

Not fierce. Not desperate. Not hungry.

Soft.

Slow.

Choosing.

My lips brush his—just a whisper of contact. But the bond *erupts*, a jolt of heat tearing through me, my fangs descending, my hands flying to his waist, pulling him closer. He doesn’t resist. Just opens for me, his tongue tangling with mine, his body pressing into mine, his hands sliding up my back, into my hair.

I groan.

Deep. Rough. *Mine*.

And the world?

It tilts.

Spins.

Burns.

But this time—I don’t pull away.

I *lean* in.

Because the truth is—

I don’t know if I came here to destroy him.

But I know I’m not leaving.

Not now.

Not ever.

We dress in silence.

Not the tense quiet of before, not the charged silence of enemies circling each other, but something softer. Something new. I pull on my tunic, still stained with blood from last night’s fight, my fingers trembling as I fasten the buttons. He watches me—shirtless, coat gone, fangs retracted, eyes like frozen fire—but not with hunger. Not with possession. With something else.

With *care*.

“You’re hurt,” he says, stepping closer.

“It’s nothing.”

“Liar.” He reaches out, fingers brushing the wound on my shoulder. “You took a blade meant for me.”

“So?”

“So,” he says, voice rough, “you don’t get to die for me.”

“And you don’t get to live without me.”

He doesn’t answer.

Just pulls me into his arms.

Not to claim. Not to dominate.

But to *hold*.

One arm around my waist, the other cradling my head, pulling me against his chest. I don’t fight. Don’t run. Just collapse into him, my body trembling, my breath ragged, my hands clutching his shirt.

“I’m sorry,” he murmurs, pressing his lips to my hair. “For everything. For the pain. For the bond. For *this*.”

“It’s not your fault,” I say, voice muffled against his chest. “Not all of it. You didn’t take her. You didn’t bind her. You didn’t write the contract.”

“But I’m the one who holds it now,” he says. “And I’m the one who bound you.”

“You didn’t have a choice,” I whisper.

“Maybe not.” He pulls back, just enough to look at me. “But I could have let you go. I could have refused the bond. I could have walked away. But I didn’t.”

“Because?”

“Because I *wanted* you.” His fingers brush my cheek. “From the moment you touched the parchment. From the moment your rune flared. From the moment your scent—salt and storm—filled the chamber. I *wanted* you. Not as a weapon. Not as a pawn. Not as a contract heir. But as *you*.”

My breath hitches.

“And I knew,” he says, voice raw, “that if I let you go, I’d spend the rest of my immortal life wondering what could have been.”

“And now?”

“Now,” he says, “I know.”

I don’t answer.

Just look at him—shirtless, wounded, lethal, *mine*.

And for the first time—

I believe it.

The corridors are quiet as we walk.

Not the usual tension—the kind that hums with unspoken threats and shifting alliances—but something deeper. Final. Like the air itself knows a line has been crossed, and there’s no going back. The torches burn low, their cold blue flames flickering against the obsidian walls, casting long, shifting shadows. The runes etched into the floor pulse faintly, reacting to the magic in the air, to the bond stretching between us.

He doesn’t hold my hand.

Doesn’t touch me.

Just walks beside me, close enough that I can feel the heat of his body, close enough to smell the salt on his skin, close enough to hear the steady rhythm of his breath.

And then—

A knock.

“Sovereign,” Mara’s voice, low and steady. “The Council requests your presence. They’re demanding answers about the poison.”

“Tell them I’ll be there,” Kael says, not looking away from me.

“And Tide?”

“She’s with me.”

“Yes, sir.”

The footsteps fade.

He exhales, long and slow. “We should go.”

“I’m not your puppet.”

“No.” He steps closer, one hand lifting to my jaw. “You’re my equal. My partner. My *future*.”

My breath hitches.

“And I’m yours,” he says. “Whether you admit it or not.”

I don’t answer.

Just look at him—shirtless, wounded, lethal, *mine*.

And for the first time—

I believe it.

The Council chamber is colder than usual.

The torches dim. The air thick with tension. Elric watches us, eyes sharp. Borin leans back, golden eyes narrowed. Mara stands by the door, silent, observant.

And then—

“Well?” Elric asks, voice sharp. “Did he take you? Did he claim you? Or are you still pretending to resist?”

All eyes turn to me.

Kael doesn’t move. Doesn’t flinch. Just watches her, his expression unreadable.

I lift my chin.

“Yes,” I say, voice clear. “He did.”

The room stills.

Not a whisper. Not a breath. Not a single sound.

Elric’s eyes narrow. “You’re lying.”

“Am I?” I step forward, my fangs descending, my rune flaring above my spine. “Then why does my rune glow? Why does the bond hum? Why do I tremble when he looks at me?”

“Because the bond is strong,” Borin says, cutting in. “Not because of consummation. The magic responded. That’s enough.”

“It’s not enough,” Elric hisses. “A bond without completion is unstable. It will fray. It will break. And when it does—war begins.”

“Then let it break,” I say, stepping forward. “If the bond is so fragile, then perhaps it was never meant to be.”

“You’re lying,” Elric spits. “You’re drenched in him. I can smell it. Your skin hums. Your pulse jumps. You’re marked.”

“And you’re desperate,” I reply, voice cold. “You wear his shirt like a trophy, but you’ve never been near him. You spread lies like poison. And the Council lets you.”

“Enough,” Kael says, stepping between us. “The bond stands. The alliance holds. Tide is under my protection. If anyone has a problem with that, they can take it up with me—personally.”

The threat hangs in the air.

Thick. Sharp. *Deadly*.

No one speaks.

“Meeting adjourned,” he says.

We leave in silence.

Back in his chambers, he finally speaks.

“You told them yes,” I say, whirling on him. “You told them the bond was consummated.”

“I did.”

“Why?”

“Because it was.”

“You bit me! You claimed me!”

“Claiming isn’t consummation,” he says. “Not fully. Not completely. Not the way I want it.”

She stares at me. “You want it.”

“Yes.”

“Then why stop?”

“Because I want you to choose it,” he says. “Not because the bond forces you. Not because magic compels you. But because you do.”

She doesn’t answer.

Just turns and walks to the window, arms crossed, back to me.

And then—

Soft, so soft I almost miss it—

“Maybe I do.”

I don’t move.

Don’t breathe.

Just listen.

“Maybe I do want you,” she says, voice quiet. “Maybe I do want this. Maybe I’m just… afraid.”

I step closer. Slow. Deliberate.

“Then don’t be,” I murmur, stopping just behind her. “Let me in. Let me have you. Not as a prisoner. Not as a pawn. But as yours.”

She doesn’t turn.

Just stands there, breathing fast, her rune glowing faintly.

And then—

She leans back.

Just an inch.

Just a breath.

But it’s enough.

I wrap my arms around her. Pull her against me. Press my lips to her neck, just above the bite.

And the bond?

It sings.

Later, in the quiet, we lie tangled in the sheets, sweat-slicked, breath mingling, hearts beating in time. The black flames in the hearth have reignited, their cold glow casting long, shifting shadows. The runes on the walls pulse faintly, reacting to the magic, to the bond, to the *truth*.

He’s on his back, one arm beneath my head, the other draped across my waist. My head rests on his chest, my fingers tracing the scar on his shoulder—the one Malrik left. His heartbeat is slow. Steady. *Alive*.

“You’re quiet,” he says, voice rough.

“So are you.”

“I’m thinking.”

“About what?”

He turns his head, just enough to look at me. “About the future.”

“We don’t have one.”

“We do.” He lifts his hand, brushes a strand of hair from my face. “You could break the contract. Free your bloodline. But it would kill me.”

“And if I rewrite it?”

“Then we rule. Together. As equals. But the magic resists change. It demands balance. It demands *sacrifice*.”

“And you’re asking me to choose.”

“No.” He leans in, close enough that I can feel his breath on my lips. “I’m telling you the truth. The rest is up to you.”

My chest tightens.

Because I came here to destroy him.

To sever the chain.

To avenge my mother.

But now?

Now I’m not sure I can.

“You’re not like him,” I whisper.

“Who?”

“The vampire king who took her.”

He doesn’t answer.

Just watches me, eyes dark, fangs bared.

“You’re not a monster,” I say. “You’re not a predator. You’re… *more*.”

“And you?” he asks. “Are you still just a weapon?”

“I don’t know.”

“Then stop fighting,” he murmurs. “Stop hating. stop pretending. Let me in. Let *us* in.”

My breath hitches.

And then—

I kiss him.

Soft. Slow. Choosing.

My lips brush his—just a whisper of contact. But the bond erupts, a jolt of heat tearing through me, my fangs descending, my hands flying to his waist, pulling him closer. He doesn’t resist. Just opens for me, his tongue tangling with mine, her body pressing into mine, her hands sliding up his chest, into his hair.

I groan.

Deep. Rough. *Mine*.

And the world?

It tilts.

Spins.

Burns.

But this time—I don’t pull away.

I *lean* in.

Because the truth is—

I don’t know if she came here to destroy me.

But I know I’m not letting her go.

Not now.

Not ever.